A Reminder To Myself, Cherish Every Moment.
I always think to myself, I can’t wait until you sleep through the night because I am sick to death of the never-ending exhaustion. That I can’t wait until I can stop breast feeding because I don’t like that my body isn’t my own anymore. That I can't wait until you are a bit older so I can have more than an hour or two of ‘me’ time because my social life is basically non-existent with you. But the truth is, every moment with you is precious. I get a lump in my throat thinking that these moments, (the ones that I can’t wait to end) are the ones that are so sacred to just you and I, WILL one day, soon end. A reminder to myself, cherish every moment.
The moment when I get up to you during the night and your face turns in to a beaming smile when you see mine. When I start to feed you and you snuggle in to me the way you do only during the quiet hours of the night. When your little hand escapes from your swaddle and caresses me because you just want to be close. The way you smile and coo to only me as we sit and cuddle for a few moments when you have finished that night feed. I will treasure that moment with you which is fast fleeting, even though I can barely keep my eyes open. A reminder to myself, cherish every moment.
I am always excited to watch you reach the next milestone while I am constantly reminding myself to live in the moment. You are growing so fast and soon you won’t be my baby girl anymore. Even though your growth will bring its own set of unique moments that I will cherish, there will always be part of me that will long for the precious times that I wished away. The times where I was all you needed. The times no one else got but I was blessed enough to share with you. A reminder to myself, cherish every moment.
I am not perfect. Sometimes I will fail you and I am so sorry for that. My dream for you is that you will grow to be strong, independent, caring, compassionate, have your own personal love for God, an absolute passion for life and value your beauty on the inside more than what is on the outside. I will do my best to help you in all these areas and I will always be beside you in any path you choose to take. If that path makes you stumble and fall I promise I will be there to help pick you back up. A reminder to myself, cherish every moment.
You are my unexpected miracle and I am nothing less than blessed to be your mummy.
I love you baby girl,
Your Mumma
xx